Going astray
(Benjamin Schmid)
WAV 892 kB, 81 sec
Sometimes it seems to me
That I can´t be what I want to be
I can´t grasp the sense
The doubts are so immense
Sometimes I feel happyness
Sometimes I feel worthless
Buried in frustration
There´s no salvation
Yes, I´m going astray
And I haven´t even seen the way
It´s like poison in my veins
A silent scream, a bewildering dream
And I´ll never get to see a way
I´m about to lose the way
My head full of things I never say
Anxiety I can´t control
Like the chain of my soul
Every day seems the same
My life worthless and in vain
I don´t belong
I can´t get along
Am I living a lie?
No, but I´m living a question that can´t be answered
Cause no way´s there for me
With my body in the swamp
And quicksand in my mind
There´s no scheme, no plan
And I don´t know who I am
Every word has been said before
Every thought has been thought before
So here I am finally
Suffering from my sanity
Living just for me I never could
Living for you I never would
I feel it can´t be in vain